After the meeting last night, my mind has not gotten off the issue we are in right now (and to whoever that has not thought about it, this post is for you guys), and what i am about to write would be my thoughts and decisions.
The whole day i was thinking of why certain questions and views were being put to the table and trying to figure out the biggest catch of this proposal. And i figured that there is no bigger catch to this proposal than us. Look back at all the questions you asked, what if this, what if that, what if i can and what if i cannot. There is nothing wrong with the proposal, i see it as why not, but looking back at us, i ask why yes?
In a couple of months, BB will be 3yrs old. Within 3yrs we have built ourselves from nothing to something and here we are today to make one of the most biggest decision ever. What are we gonna do about it?
This are the categories you guys have to put yourself in.
If last night you have made your decision, than you have not decided wisely, things like this need to be thought out carefully, up to the littlest detail.
If yes, Izzit because of the luxury that we are promised of getting or izzit because it will bring the group to move forward?
If during the meeting or until now you question yourself what if i cannot play what if i dont have the capability, all i could say its your own fault. It does not lie with the group, its your individual responsibility to have the skill, if yours is still minimal, i'm sorry but to cut it you have to work your ass off.
If you are still WOWing over the future, than please wake up from dreamland.
And If you had said no, i would like to hear the reason.
Taking the risk is no problem, signing the contract is no problem too - but these are just words. Through the years BB had many words that have not put into action when comes to musicality of individual musicians. Though we play percussion instruments do some of you dare say "I am a true percussionist?" As an individual, are you creative enough, are you well equiped with a skill, are you passionate of what you are doing, do you know what you're doing and most of all are you strong enough to lead your peers in any situation?
These are the situations.
Writing songs - able to come up with ideas in less than 5mins?
Performances - able to perform the repertoire well, given less than a weeks notice? Willing to stand up infront of the crowd to entertain?
Musicality - Dynamics, groove - do you even understand what is that?
Skills - Can you play the instrument well if i were to pass it to you.
ad libing skills - If there is a mistake, if there is a change in the song, do you have the capability to make it right?
Finally - do you trust yourself to lead your peers throughout the song without any hiccups and make it a fantastic show? (good shows are not an option)
How great the band is, is determined by how good the weakest member is. Right now, you know who you are, depending on the next for the answers. If you want to do this, you cannot go to war with just a small pen knife, you have to be prepared with a sword and parang only than you can survive. If you know all this while you've been hiding with the knife, you should know than that there are ppl you always depend on to fight for you.
Simply said, you guys work hard and everyone agrees to the contract, many will stay with BB if not many shall leave. Fillet, Zarin, Fauzi, Jas and I have gone through every piece of history of BB since this began, to us this is our baby and after 3yrs this opportunity to take a huge risk comes to us and we dont take it, we have wasted this passion and i see no point the few of us continue to achieve it. At the end of the day, we are just any other phase in the NP scene, like our ex NPcombo band or we are still there but being in NP is the furthest we can ever go.
Look back at all the meetings, our plans for the future. And look and what we wanted to do, this proposal is more than what we wanted. ND has opened the door for us, are we going to drag each other in or are we gonna walk in or not at all. I believe as a band all of us have to carry about the same amount of weight. right now its not balanced. I dont want some of us to carry other ppls load, it will be very unfair. To make everything work, everyone muz be responsible for their own individual self in BB.
I give you guys till like coming wednesday to think about it.
